(originally published in WYRD, Winter 1988)

Capricorn, the sure-footed, climbing Goat, has been connected with Winter Solstice since ancient times. Observing the Sun’s progressively lowering path each day, early sky-watchers viewed Solstice’s advent with trepidation. What if the Sun eventually sank so low that it vanished forever, leaving the world in perpetual night? Vigils of every kind are still held all over the globe as Solstice approaches, but every year the Sun faithfully regains its dignified ascent. The Goat is the constellation in which the Sun appears to begin its renewed climb after Winter Solstice. In old star maps, Capricorn is portrayed as a sea-goat with goat’s head and body and fishy fins and tail. This supposedly allowed the creature to survive Winter floods and rains as well as to climb through the heavens.
There are a couple of legends explaining the strange goat/fish hybrid. One story tells how Pan leaped into a river to escape the fire-breathing monster, Typhon. He tried to change into a fish as he dove into the water but the shape shifting was hastily done and only semi-successful, leaving him with goatish torso and head. Another account describes Pan mischievously entertaining some river nymphs by trying to change his lower half into a fish as he jumped into the water with them. Jupiter, amused by this sight, put the bizarre figure into the sky as a constellation.
Another bit of Capricorn/Solstice trivia – in ancient Peru, Winter Solstice marked the New Year which was the Festival of the Beard. When the Peruvians looked up at this constellation, they saw Nicca the Beard, not the Goat. However, the beard happens to be one of the main features of a goat, so continuity remains. Celebrants wore masks with long beards to mark the occasion. Even today, many men grow a beard in Winter and don’t shave until Spring. Although in most cases, this is simply to protect their faces against the weather, I know some pagan men who like to consider this a personal reflection of the season transformation of the Sun God, young and smooth-cheeked in Spring and bewhiskered and mature in Winter! (and let’s not forget Santa Claus’ beard)
The Goat has a long history of playing the role of sacrificial animal, often pictured as dying, falling down with one leg tucked under his body. Saturn, the planetary ruler of Capricorn, generally brings denial and necessity into our lives, demanding sacrifices. Saturn brings us to our knees, humbling us through restrictions and teaching us patience through hardship. Even though Saturn can be considered the destroyer, the bringing of symbolic or actual death, Saturn is also a redeemer, turning our vision inward to contemplate the sources of rebirth. The fact that the body of the dying Goat ends in a vigorous fish tail suggests resurrection.
One recurring theme that persists throughout the subjects of Solstice and Capricorn is sacrifice. Of course modern Witches do not practice human or animal sacrifice, but the concept of sacrifice itself is still an important part of our practices. Originally, the scapegoat served as a vehicle for public purging of the community’s collective evils. Universally, before the beginning of a new cycle or new year, people are eager to cleanse and purify themselves from the negativities or troubles of the old cycle. Nearly every branch of Wicca/Witchcraft includes the traditional “dying god” myth but we often fall short, removing the idea of sacrifice to a safe distance by projecting it in symbolic terms only. If we really want to live out the axiom As Above, So Below, we must take these symbols and breathe life into them by incorporating them into our daily lives. It’s easy enough to connect the cycle of seasons with birth, death, and rebirth and even go so far as to ritually enact some of the myths of the year, notably the Oak King and Holly King. But unless we can really apply these symbols and mythological figures to our everyday lives, they remain only distantly remembered fairy tales, or at best good stories to tell around a Winter’s fire. It is up to us to keep our myths alive, and we cannot do this by merely going through the ritual motions in circle or temple.
Winter Solstice occurs when the Sun appears to stand still before slowly gaining height in its daily path through the heavens. In our coven, we stand still, like the Sun, observing ritual silence in an unlit circle beginning at sunset on the longest night. In this silence, we listen, taking advantage of the peaceful stillness to hear our own inner voices and receive spiritual guidance. As the night goes on, we start to light candles, one by one. Solstice night is the peak of our Dwelling-Within Time, time to search out and confront the darkest parts of our lives, digging out our innermost diamonds of light. Each and every one of us is indeed a star, pursuing our unique and specially blessed paths across this dark plain called Life. As the candle-glow gradually increases in our circle, each newly kindled flame reminds us of our obligation to keep growing like the waxing Light, climbing steadily like the regenerated Capricornus, even in darkness maintaining the gleam of perfect love and perfect trust.
Sacrifices vary. Sometimes tokens representing bad habits or stale patterns are “sacrificed” on the altar or in the Cauldron. A scapegoat can be created in whatever form is appropriate, into which the coven throws all of their accumulated rubbish and then the scapegoat is burned. However, making a sacrifice doesn’t always have to be a dramatic, somber occasion. In Yuletide giveaways, try giving away some of your own possessions, things you feel might serve another person better than they’ve been serving you. Often people get overburdened by material things and the possessions actually seem to own the person rather than vice versa. Even if this consists of merely cleaning out your closet and donating the discards to charity, the sacrifice will not only rid you of useless baggage and unclutter your life but will also help the less fortunate.
There is another side to this, though, and it is the sacrifices that we, as Witches, are required to make all year round. At Solstice, we look up and see Capricorn, the Goat, humbly dying on one knee yet bravely demonstrating that regeneration comes only by way of death. Therefore we should not hesitate or flinch at giving our own last drop of blood, our last penny, our utmost creativity, or our last weary bit of energy to fill the Goddess’ Chalice. The biggest sacrifice we can possibly make is ourselves, and we should do this without fear, without sadness, and without looking back. Each of us experiences our own longest night, or dark night of the soul, which can happen in any season, any year, at which time we are forced to sacrifice our inner peace to face personal tests and challenges.
Listening closely on Solstice night, you may hear the song of your truest and highest self – not the various voices with which you answer to your various names. Everyone has a variety of faces or voices they assume as Mom, Lover, Sister, and so forth. This is perfectly normal. A pure, eternal voice, the voice of your ongoing spirit, separate yet intrinsically a part of your whole identity, can be heard if you listen with an open heart. Let its song lift you, carry you upwards, and lead you to fuller harmonies with your world. Acknowledge its power and fearlessly love and trust its wisdom. If you are silent enough to humbly sacrifice your assorted and often conflicting voices and just be still, if you learn to sing along with the angelic carol you hear on Solstice, you will discover a starry glow that will guide you through even the longest of your nights. Abandon yourself to this starlight, sacrifice all your self-centered needs, and let the star and its song become your center. By doing so, you will find unimaginable bliss and blessings.
Wishing peace and enlightenment to all – happy Yuletide!